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Hi all,
Its been one week since my birthday!
haha, 1st all all, a very big THANK YOU to all those who wished me happy birthday.

Here is as follows :

18/11

Miao Qing - Msged at 649pm
Karen - Friendster at 1039pm

19/11

My Family - Cake at home at 11pm
Vignesh - Msn at 1159pm

20/11

Vignesh - Msn at 12am
Charmaine - Msged at 1204am
Hidayah - Msged at 805am
Sir Tan - Msged at 814am
Christabel - Msged at 909am
Dion - Friendster at 1233pm
Angela & Khai - Wished me at 101pm
Ryan, Edward, Khai,Wei Hong & Angela - Cake and song at 128pm
Ferg, Edward & Ryan - Wished me at 158pm
Yirong, Wei Jie, Sishou, Olivia & Matthias - Cake, Song, and Wished at 224pm
Vignesh - Msged at 355pm
Wan Yi - Msged at 514pm
"Bustard" ?? - Friendster at 455pm
Annie - Friendster at 612pm
Fish & Co. Crew - Wished me at 941pm
Vanessa - Msged at 957pm
Kerong - Msn at 1142pm
Annie - Msn at 1142pm

21/11

Shirley - Msn at 1207am
Shirley - Friendster at 1209am
Yishu - Wished at 732om

That all haha
Really Appreciate it, especially to ppl who remembered it every year.

Tuesday

Well, on my birthday i ate 2 birthday cake lol... haha
Somemore both for lunch.... So damn full...
After that went to IMM with Wei Hong, MX and Edward.
Ate Fish and Co.
Haha that was the 1st time i eat that lol....
After that went home, chiong assignment... ( It happens evey year during my poly life )

Wednesday

Forgot to bring my things that i do?
Was like .... waste my time!!
After that was marked for assignment 2 for ACTA...
Went home, do assignment for a while and went to work...
After that went home lol...

Thursday

Didn't went for lesson...
Couldn't wake up after 3 days of practically not sleeping lol....
After that went JEC to catch a movie with Wan Yi, Kerong, Wei Hong & Edward...
Watched BRATZ lol.... Was nice haha
After that went home lol..

Friday

Went for CCK open house..
Saw ppl sitting there and started scolding...
Whole day scolding?? the 2 in-charge Charmaine and Florence..
Meanwhile met up with Miss Ow, cause Fhaizal wants to talk to her..
After that met up with Miss Ow again...Cause Hui Qi wants to take her work...
After that ate and went home....

Satuarday

Satyed at home whole day...

Sunday

Stayed ay home till work...
Something interesting happened today lol..
Haha..the pipes burst...
End up whole Foodcourt flooded...
Haha...most of the stalls no customer lol...
And up skating my way through, casue super slippery...
and went home...

haha...i have the feeling that ppl are avoiding me lol....
Maybe it's true? Maybe it isn't?
Who Knows? Only those who do that does...

"Couldn't take the blame."
"Sick with shame."
"Must be exhausting to lose your own game."
"Selfishly hated,"
"No wonder you're jaded."
"You can't play the victim this time,"
"And you're too late."

"You used to captivate me"
"By your resonating light"
"Now I'm bound by the life you left behind"
"Your face it haunts"
"My once pleasant dreams"
"Your voice it chased away"
"All the sanity in me"

A few other songs which will relate to the feelings i feel now....
Haha..Well that's all i guess for this post...
Till next time...

Birthday?

Hi all...
Shall post what happened this few days lol...

Sat

Went for bridgade dinner at hq....The food was not bad lol...considering that we did have to pay a single cent.... liked the desert lol...which was fried ice cream haha....got the corn flavour...
After that went to mind's cafe.... was fully booked so made a reservation and wennt to arcade 1st....
At arcade...played guitar 6th edition..... lol...and i dun even noe how to control the speed and all....so wasted $1 to anyhow try and lost at 2nd stage......Then went to ask some others who were there how to change.....lol..was like so -_-!!
Then went to play the police game....died at the 3rd stage lol... after that world combat....all the guys came play lol so there just now 4 ppl.... lol....i died at the second stage and i am supposed to have played this more then the others....
The plane at hotel i still can kill ^^ but died at the stage called bridge.....thats the second time i try and i think after so long of not playing...my reaction became damn slow lol....
Went to try back guitar and in the end still died at 2nd stage....
Finally mind's cafe the person called...
Played the usual "saboteur" and the dinosaur dog and bone game.... haha
was funny lol...
dinosaur game need to shout lol..and as everyone present is a qualified officer.... we were like shouting till mad... haha...in the end all no voice lol...
Had fun there....and went home at about 3...

Sun

Woke up the next day at 11....Went to faster change and went to teach art tuition....
After that...went back home....parents say to prepare to go out and eat lol....
Then was like waiting ad waiting and in the end....my parents suddenly became angry and say go buy own lunch... so i left and went's to friend house to do up the game patch lol....
After that went to work....and went back to friend's house till like 4....
Went home and chiong my 500 word report lol....but obviously didn't complete lol...

Yesterday

Went to sch after not sleeping.... was late for gems lol....but nvm.... luckily teacher say that my assignment can hand in on fri.... lol...was grouped and next week we were suppose to role play to teacher how to eat properly for chinese food lol.... -_-!!
Had our filming checked after that......
Looks like the filming in the chalet was like all wasted lol....haha...
was critic liked -_-!! .....
Argh.....shit it man...hahah
was like half dozing during vpt...
after that went for mrtl....was also half dozing lol....
Was like about to be sick lol....so cold...
then my father went to fetch me and went out to eat with my family....so didn't went with hong they all....
Went to eat japanese food lol...was like telling my family which was nice and explaining what does the dishes meant lol...
After that went home to cut the cake lol...haha...to celebrate for my birthday lol....

Haha a BIG THANK YOU for all those who wished me happy birthday lol...

Did i really lose it?....
I'm not so sure lol...
Part of me know the answer....
But part of me doesn't want to accept it.....
And the reaction i get everytime is different...
So did i really lose it? Only you can define that...

"I can't change who I am"
"Not this time, I wont lie to keep you near me"
"And in this short life"
"There's no time to waste on giving up"
"My love wasn't enough"
"(Lacrimosa)"
"And you can blame it on me"
"(dies illa)"
"Just set your guilt free, honey"
"(Lacrimosa)"
"I don't want to hold you back now love"
"(Dona eis requiem)"

"(I dream in darkness"
"I sleep to die,"
"Erase the silence,"
"Erase my life,"
"Our burning ashes"
"Blacken the day,"
"A world of nothingness,"
"Blow me away.)"
"Do you wonder why you hate?"
"Are you still too weak to survive your mistakes?"

A few more songs i found to be interesting haha..
Well gonna start chionging my maya now lol....
Tell next time...

Decisions...

Hi all...

Quite a few things happened this few days lol.....

Lets starts with Sunday then....
Went to the 73 stories vertical marathon....
haha...some people there are crazy... women above 50 still can clock a timing of 7 min+
and even an 80 yr old guy still running...haha
My timing...? 13 min 58 sec... and the 1st is exactly 8 mins faster then me....
lol...haha but at least know my own limits lol...
Went home after that to prepare for work lol...

Monday have GEMs... i had a funeral hold for me...haha
well...normal lesson after that...
After lesson went to jurong entertainment centre to watch bee movie..
The movie at 1st i tot was good?....
but when reaching the ending part....the story sort of sucks lol...

Today....1st time the whole block in my school blackout...
haha ppl screaming because all their works gone....
What happen?... my conclusion is that our class work crash the server lol...
After that went to JEC again...eat played and homed lol...

I hate making decisions...
Y? Cause decison affects things...and if it turns wrong who is going to get the blame?...
Even if u got it correct people will expect u to do so...
So better not let me make decisions for u all lol... everyone has a brain..
Y must it be i who make the final choice...

"These are the chronicles of life and death and everything between."
"These are the stories of our lives, as fictional as they may seem."
"You come in this world, and you go out just the same."
"Today could be the best day of your life."

"So little time"
"Try to understand that I'm"
"Trying to make a move just"
"to stay in the game"
"I try to stay awake and remember my name"
"But everybody's changing"
"And I don't feel the same"

Just a few more songs that i find it meaningful....
Just a few more days left and it will be all over...
Well till next time..
bb

2nd Time

hi all...

Yesterday went to amanda's concert at TP...
was not bad...haha
After that went to mind's cafe...had fun...
I nearly got a heart attack...haha..heart stopped for a scond or two...
but all in all it was fun...

Well today's suppose to be the day where my ex class and i go out with my teacher as we're giving her a farewell party... but obviously it was cancelled...
Why? Because I'M the one who organize it...

"thank you"
" y u thk me?"
"for spoiling my saturday"

"hi"
"shut up la pin ass"
"ok lor"

Haha...conversation with two of my other friends...hahah
I'm losing my friends faster the i could count them....
Soon i will have a farewell party of my own...looking forward to it...

"If you want to live, let live."
"If you want to go, let go."
"I'm not afraid to dream, to sleep, sleep forever."
"I don't need to touch the sky."
"I just want to feel that high,"
"And you refuse to lift me."

"Mary had a lamb."
"His eyes black as coals."
"If we play very quiet, my lamb,"
"Mary never has to know."
"Just once in my life,"
"I think it'd be nice,"
"Just to lose control, just once"

Haha a few meaniful songs which i think has deep connection with me now...haha
Tmrw will be going for the vertical marathon... 73 stories...i will have to try how high it is then...
Haha...dropping down like a rock...

Well thats all for now then...
Till next time...

Best words Ever

Hi all...
Nothing much to post lol...
Been quraelling with parents nowadays...was asked to moved out more then once....
NVM...my funeral is coming soon...

Start of school....wasn't a good day....got to expose to more truths in life....
What a day...

Anyway best words ever goes to this conversations...

"hi"
"busy to talk?"
"Y muz I tok u? who even wants to tok to u!"

"hi"
"have the mood to talk?"
"i always have the mood to tok jus not to u"
"fullstop!"
"dun disturb me b4 i block u"

Woah....All this words are so ...... (fill in the blank)

Meaniful?
F**ked up?
Encouraging?
Disappointing?

Felt all these when i unravel some of my truths in life...
Haha...i think i just lost another friend...

Haiz...another lesson learnt about truths in life would be you can plan alot of things...but people just dun appreciated it...
People dun even appreciate what teachers have done for them...
Still can "chey" ....
So must i not plan? If i dun do it, who will? NVM shall continue with what we have...

Have been feeling down this past few nights? So sry to all those ppl who have been chatting with me....
I think its time to remove my mask and be myself? But that would mean a different me...
NVM shall just use change of hearts to do things then...

I think i'm getting better at it also...how people can change their emotions so fast it just scares u...
Soon i will be able to change it completely without anyone noticing it...

"There's a stain on my hand and it's red"
"Oh my god, am I losing it?"
"I can't help what I've done or I've said"
"It's the button I push"
"Hand of blood, I don't wanna feel like my heart is breaking"
"Hand of blood, I don't wanna see that my life is burning"

"I'm suffocatting under words of sorrow"
"GO!!!"
"There're bodies lying on the floor"
"but I keep on staring"
"my world is over"
"close the door"

Another few songs which i find meaningful...which reflects the current situation....
Well thats all for now...
Till next time

Mixed

hi all....its been a week since i last posted...and lots of things happened in between...

Well lets with my shooting lol....

Went to the chalet...overall...the shooting was only ok...
Hopefully we can use all the shots that we did to make the video that is in my head....
1st day at the chalet was slacking around as no one has the mood for filming...
Another reason may be caused by half the people coming late.... NVM
So the 1st day was kinda wasted....
the 2nd day.... went to SJ.... when i was back, they were already filming...
can say we made use of the 2nd day to do most of the things...
Angela needs to go home so well....it ended with me feeling very awkward...NVM
3rd day shot the playground scene... although was kind of hasty....

All in all...it's only ok.... and i don't even know how it will turn out....
For this whole shooting... i don't even feel like i am a director...but NVM
Just get this video done and i can be happy about it...

7 is a powerful number....Well.....i just have mixed feelings for this number....NVM
I think I will only be the one who understand this statement....

One day if I am about to die... the answers everyone is searching for will be in here lol....
Haha...although i don't think anyone can break it...

SORRY Sze hui for causing your bill burst...

"It makes me think of how you act to me"
"You do favors and then rapidly"
"You just turn around and start asking me"
"about things that you want back from me"

"I hate everything about you"
"Why do I love you"
"I hate everything about you"
"Why do I love you"
"Only when I stop to think"
"About you, I know"
"Only when you stop to think"
"About me, do you know"

Well maybe i will bring my emotions and feelings down into the grave with me...
Maybe...Just maybe i may reveal them out at the last moment...
But can you understand how i feel....

To some...i may be a kind, innocent little kid....
To some...i may be a heartless, angry person....
To some...i may be someone who is just like you...
To some...i may be i may be a person you meet in your life....
To some...i may be a person with no childhood....
So what am i to YOU?

Well...i think i have revealed enough of myself for now...
Till next time then....