As the wheel turns...

Hi guys,

It's been months since i've last posted...
Way too many things had happened since then.. haha

Well, 1st of all, truth really hurts..
The truth of it is, it's gets numb at some point of time..
i feel like cutting my heart out to see what it's made off...hmmm..
Anyway, things aren't what they used to be in the past..
This is when regrets come in...
Why do humans compare? Why do i always compare? Why why why?
Maybe i miss the past too much..

Anyway, i realize that problems faced last time is now faced by others...
How i envy them to face it now, when i faced it so long ago..
How i envy them that they'll get advice while i stagger around blindly before i force an answer out..
How i envy that their lives are so different from now...

Remember the saying one's for all and all's for one?
Where's the one in things man? The oneness that so many people talks about?
if there's such things as oneness and fairness, there wouldn't be laws and rules to keep it in order...haha

I also realize something...
People don't trust or believe me...
I mean, why should they right?
But is it my blessing to see things happened to others and suffer the same as me last time?
And every time this happens, i'll just have to blame myself..why? Cause it's my fault for not putting enough effort to help...if only...
If if if, what's with all the if...

Anyway, back to realization, i realize that i sometimes disgust myself...
For being so irritating..
Everyone hates it.. and i meant EVERYONE...
Why am i like that?
Is this the side effects of changing?
Maybe i should close it all up..

Anyway, i guess i lost the last link...
Maybe...who knows...
But most probably i've lost it..
Thanks to? Me of course...
Haha, what else can be the reason?

The signs are clear,
The time is near,
When the wheel completes it's cycle,
It's when i'll hope for a miracle.
This is how it is suppose to be i guess...

Recent news speaks of someone who died, and everyone is grieving?
People just don't appreciated enough of what's happening around them to care..
Why don't humans appreciate everything and take care of it?
Why do humans regret? Why do humans not care...

Have you seen before someone dying in front of you?
The eyes that's full of regret, full of things that they worry and can't give up yet..
Have you seen what a dying can do? What death can drive a person?
Have you killed anything or anyone before?
Do you know the feeling of causing the death of someone?
How do i make everyone understand?
The pain in all this...
Sometimes, i agree, that only through pain and death, can humans truly learn and and change their thinking...

Hmm, the thinking of a different me? Hmm...
The truth of having equivalent exchange..Hmmm..

"He just wants to be heard whether it's the beat or the mic"
"He feels so unlike everybody else, alone"
"In spite of the fact that some people still think that they know him"
"But fuck em, he knows the code"
"It's not about the salary"
"It's all about reality and making some noise"
"Makin the story - makin sure his clique stays up
"That means when he puts it down Tak's pickin it up! let's go!"

"Violent breathing"
"keeps the oxygen kissing torn up lungs."
"My hearts beating but it won’t keep me from saving everyone."
"Yet I still have"
"messages to send to those I love."
"Violent breathing, it won’t keep me from saving everyone."

Well, that's all for now i guess...
Let's see how the wheel spins from now on then..haha..
Till next time..
bb