Holding on..

Hi all,

It's been some time since i last posted i guess...
Haha, same as always, quite a few things have happened..

Well, what's happen when 2 opposing forces clashed on each other?
The end result is of course those being in the middle implicated...
Haha, in this case, those in the middle will be flatten if the forces keep clashing on each other..
Try running away and that would be the best answer...
But ties still holds for both..
One a younger and one of old..
Can't they both see things in the same eye level?
Who knows, perhaps they never will...
For one is concern and the other is ignorant...

But anyway, "why do i care so much"?
This sentence still haunts me till now..
Why? Why? Why?
Maybe it's because of my past that i don't want something in future to happen?
Maybe it's just me and my overly concern manner?
Perhaps i really should don't care about all this which revolves around me..
But doing that, i will definitely regret like how i did now..
And in life, isn't not regretting whatever you choose the best?
Well, but people obviously don't like it?
So who knows? One day when i stop caring..
What's going to happen? Hmm...

"Under depreciated", this words still applies to me now...
Whatever i do, i still don't think it'll ever be enough...
With everyone, it 's always the same...
Human are just greedy by nature..
Guess it's up to give and take...
Now, this question applies once again, "I can die for you, but can you do the same for me?"

Recently i've heard a interesting thing said by a physiologist..
What do you think you will be keeping in your personal secret place after 50 years from now?
Is it a jigsaw puzzle? Or maybe your bankbook? A family photo? Or perhaps a toy?
Each of these items will tell how is this person like..

A jigsaw puzzle meant the "battle between good and evil",
you are always trying to decide whether is this wrong or correct and you always have conflicting ideas in your head. You can't really make up your decision and that's why you're "missing a piece".

A bank book meant that you are concern about money..
Anything to do with material items and things can be bought by money..
There is no real love for you, for you only love money and nothing else...

A family photo meant that you're concern about your family.
You're a responsible person and you'll always hold your family 1st before work and everything. You'll rather give up this whole world for your family..

A toy meant that you still kept "bad" memories with you and you can't forget them...
Things happened to you and you can't get over it..
Even though it has been for years, you can still remember that incident that affects you, in a bad way of course...

So guess which is mine? Haha..

Well, money issues again...
Had been eating myself most of the days lately...
But what can i do?
the only thing i can do to help is actually to try save more so i can eat myself more..
Getting a job suddenly seems like top priority...
Well, time for a job hunt again...
Though my one week job was quite enjoyable...
Worked at Suntec's Carrefour...
As a luggage promoter...
Francis, the person who's in charge of me was quite entertaining..haha..
Had quite the fun there..Though it's of course tiring...
And i got to see this girl in the MRT for 2 times...
All i know from her conversation is that she's working as a waitress now and she's from Crescent Girls last time..
Well, too bad then, don't think i'll get to see her again..haha...
It was nice while it lasted...

"I can't explain, you won't understand"
"The dream is gone, the falling deep"
"Under the spell, spoken in tongues"
"In the colors... of Hell."
"In the ringing that chimes inside me"
"So drag me down, deeper still"
"Far beyond the black horizon, beyond the things you know!"

"Can't you see my grip is weakening?"
"Erasing every line"
And taking down the frames
"I'd turn back but I'm too far away"
"A ghost to the faces I miss"
"Lights dim down"
"We're the stars tonight"
"Their voices bring"
"Slight wind to the sky"
"Their voices sing along"
"Feel their souls lift with ours as they share the night"
"But you sing a different song"
"You sing a different song"
"Have a little faith"
"I'll come back home"
"Don't forget my name"
"When I'm alone"
"A ghost to the faces I miss"
"I'm a ghost to the faces I miss"

Well, guess that's all for now then...
Guess it's time to clear my cupboard of old toys huh? hahahaha..
Till next time then...
bb