The Shoot

Hi all...

Haha...1 word to sum up yesterday shoot...it sucks...

I SUCK AS A DIRECTOR!!!

Hahaha... was like wasting so much time there...then so damn pai seh....

Nvm...thanks for waiting lol....sze hui and wan yi....

Hahah...I will be dying soon....make sure all come to my funeral lol...

Nvm..i dun think anyone will lol...

My handphone explodes...$277....

I WILL NOT DIE....!! NOT YET!!

Not till i get this shoot done...meanwhile i will gladly take any damage now...
Nothing can hurt me now....not till after the filming...

Then i will die...hahaha... and truly be a pig forever...

Till then i will survive on....


"There are just too many times when people try to put their trust in me"
"Wondering when I think of you well I protect you out of courtesy""
"Too many times that I held on but when I didn't you push away"
"Afraid to say what is wrong and right, Afraid to say what I need to say"

"I'm tired of being what you want me to be"
"Feeling so faithless lost under the surface"
"Don't know what you're expecting of me"
"Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes"
"(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)"
"Every step that I take is another mistake to you"
"(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)"

Another few songs which have great meaning that links to the current situation now...
hahah..Well that will be all for now then...

bb

Halfway in Grave

Hi all....
I'm now posting under the condition of not sleeping for 2 days lol....
Wa, feel damn high now....i think i getting siao already....
Well this feel days having the director's life sucks....
Must worry about this and that...
Now currently keeping myself awake and high by BLASTING music.....

Well...i finally know how to spell karmun lol haha...she's 7 shadow.....
Personality and the way you speak.... even the way you smile is also so alike lol....
Maybe to others they may be different, but to me? Well i don't know....
Maybe it's just the type of personality and character that seems so alike to me...

Well after typing so much, it's still history isn't it?.....
Hahah...shall get back to my work now hahah...
Anyone need me to find anything just tell...hahah

bb

Restricted

Hi all...
haha...
Well my title means that i'm restricted to something right?
Well...i'm restricted to watch summerland....
I also don't know why? but a promises is a promise right?

Well...finally found my cast for the assignment....
Now would be to get it right and film it correctly....
haha

Today went to teach art tuition....
The boy's name is jian long...haha..so like my name....
Well, he's only pri 1 so its not that difficult to teach...
haha... but i envy his life...so carefree.....

"For what I’ve done"
"I start again"
"And whatever pain may come"
"Today this ends"
"I’m forgiving what I’ve done!!!"

"I don’t know who to trust no surprise"
"(Everyone feels so far away from me)"
"Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies"
"(Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit)"
"(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)"
"(All I ever think about is this)(All the tiring time between)"
"(And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)"

haha...another few lyrics which describe the situation now....
Those who can understand this, welcome haha...
Those who cannot, happy guessing...

Thats all for now then....haha

Btw, WH....put my link as inactive again if u are reading these....

That's all

Trust

Hi...
Now I'm like bleeding all over....(not literally)....
Woohoo...my mum doesn't trust me....
Why i say that? Well thats what happen...
Mum : "very rich hor, order kfc delivery"
Mum : "maybe i should keep all the modem and ps2, since i buy the ps2 all of u all change already"
Mum : "so how much is it? $5 ,$10?"
Me: "its $2"
Mum : "very rich hor?"
Mum : "so where is the bones?" (suspect that we keep the money and never eat)
Me : "we throw already liao la?"
Mum : "orh,really ar?"
Younger brother : "here still got some crumbs"
Me thinking : "shit, now she will say we never clean up properly..."
Me thinking : "heng ar, she never hear..."
Mum : "So you all very clever liao la"
Me : "Receipt on the table" (damn fustrated)

Well that was what happened yesterday....

Today, went to school for nothing... None of the teachers mark my attendence...
So considered i never go school...

I'm so full of emotions now...feel like unleashing them out....
Really songs do bring out the emotions inside of you....

Well, there's something seriously i hate about myself....
I guessed i just don't have enough will power left....
Nowadays, i couldn't even wake up....
Result? My attendence is in such a big mess right now...

ARGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Time to change...but can I?

"Bring me to life"
"(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)"
"Bring me to life"
"I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems"
"got to open my eyes to everything"
"without a thought without a voice without a souldon't let me die here"
"there must be something more"
"bring me to life"

"I remember what they taught to me"
"Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be"
"Remember listening to all of that and this again"
"So I pretended up a person who was fittin’ in"
"And now you think this person really is me and I’m"
"(Trying to bend the truth)"
"But the more I push the more I'm pulling away 'cuz I'm"
"(Lying my way from you)"

Haha...For those who understand the above lyrics, congrates to you all
For you all can understand how i feel...hahah so many hidden meanings....
Well it's time for me to go to sleep...

Well hopefully i'm useful being a tuition teacher....feel so useless lol....
Well thats all for now....
bb

Tiring...

Hi all...
Lol...what happened today?
hmm...lets see...a group of sj officers and i went to bukit timah hill and practise our 73 stories marathon....it was damn tiring...
The first time, we run up the hill.....and in the end i ended up vomitting cause of my breakfast...
But after that, i was better and in the end...we climbed 200++ steps and up the hill for like 4 times...haha...It was damn strainous to the legs la....
Anyway after that should had been to swimming...but nvm...ended up never go...
Well thats all for now lol....
For all those taking exams now...good luck lol...for this will be the last week...
bb

Outcast

Hi again.....
Wohoo....i'm finally an outcast of my class....
Guess i should be sad huh? Well....
There's nothing i can do about that right?....
Well....from a group of 2 outcast and 2 people who never come.......
Now it looks like 1 outcast and 1 other person found different groups....
Meaning? I'm the only outcast left...
Well...that means i'm special right?.....
Since no one would want to group with me?....
Or am i just so wierd?....
Haha...all the questions that have no answer....how pathetic is that...
Am i to be a clown? Maybe....
Well...that's poly life i suppose...full of "surprises" and "excitment"...
Well...looks like there's no use being so effed up....
I'll just have to do my best then...ha...
Which most probaly mean i will fail...
And people will be like..."Y u fail?"
Ha...everyone with the fake facade....wearing a mask when they appear in front of you...
And do I have to do it?...To wear a mask everywhere I go?

What are friends for?....
To be forgotten through time?....
To become hi-bye friends next time?
Well...how many friends do i have now?...
I can barely count them...most of them will be like hi....then bye....
A few days ago...when i was on MSN...
i chat with my 3 month course friend...
He was like "hi"
"hi"
"who are u?"
"Kian leong from 3 mth course"
"ohh..."
"so u rem me"
"ya i see u everyday in sch wad?"
"wat sch r u in"
"MI"
"i'm not from MI...i'm in SP"
"haha...Dun fake...i see u eveytime..."
Well...What do you all think about that...?

Well enough of me talking about this...
So what happened tis few days then?
Well....Sat went for the OTC passing out ceremony....
Was quite sucky...cause seriuosly ..the food there sucks...
And the passing rate is only like 62? WTH
After that...we (officers of zone 4 that was present and i) went to Minds Cafe
Hahah..it's so damn fun...and we had quite a laugh there...hahah...
Amanda and Priscilla was like breathless all of us laughed till our stomach ache...
hahaha...Well it was good while the fun lasted...
Sun was work...
Mon skiped Gems but went for the others...Well the acting class was once again fun...
But other then that....it was just plainly going to sch for playing of games....
Today? Never went to sch lol...hahah...
This few days i had been waking sze hui at odd timings lol...
So if u are reading this sze hui...take my advice....stop having not enough time for sleep lol...
Haha...and if u are reading this post...leave some comments la...haha...

Well thats all for now i think...its long enough lol..hahah...

bb then...