Empty-Handed

Hi all,

It's been around 3 weeks since i've last posted...

Well, lots of things have happened since the last time...

Education system in Singapore is considered one of the best, but to have a system to influence people nowadays, so that they will end up having low self esteem of themselves, and is to condemned some others is definitely considered unique...
Why not let the teachers themselve boost up the morales of these people, and we shall see if it's so easy...

Recently, a taxi driver scolded me for giving him a $50 note.
"I shouldn't have picked you up la!!"
"Now make me so troublesome, need to give you so mcuh change"
"Can you think more for others or not?"
Now c'mon, how in this world do i know if you have the change?
And given that you're a working adult, don't you have enough change?
You say that i don't care alot...and here and there, i have people who say i care too much...
Seriously... what is happening man...

Recently, some of my friends have started smoking...
Or what they call as "social smoking"...
Reasons such as depression?
Breakups? Or bored?
Ha, do you seriously think it's really alright to just smoke for fun?
You want to start before i even know you, that's fine, since i was too late to stop it...
But after i know you, and you still do it? It's just my fault for not stopping you...

"What can you do?"
"Who are you to even stop them?"
"You can't do anything.."
"It's not your problem.."

In this world, i'm just a puny little person, what can i do, or even, who am i to change this?
I've done all this just so to try and help...
It's just in my nature to help others?
I may be dumb and all, but that's who i am, ormaybe it's who i'm mould into, but it's just me!!

Sometime, misunderstanding can lead to many things...
And sometime, people may think otherwise...
To show care to others doesn't meant any ill intentions...
I know that it may seem wierd, but hey, C'mon, it's just me...
You don't need to be so afraid of me...
Or the actions that i do...
Or the words that i say...
Although you're not used to it...
Though it's no point explaining now...

Chains are broken...
Or maybe it's just me holding on to a broken chain...
Hoping what will never be mend...

You'll realise how lonely it is...
To be left alone in the rain walking...
Aimlessly trying to find...
Something that is there but not there...
And the more you try to have it, the more it slips away...
No one is there to help you...
And you have only yourself there...
Who will come and save you...
For no one can hear your cries...
Who will come and help you...
For no one can hear your pleas...
Who will help you through this pit...
And into the bright light of the future...
Oh, who shall it be...

"Stop your messin' around boy"
"Better think a your future"
"Better make some good plans boy"
"Said everyone of my teachers"
"Lookout"
"You better play it safe"
"You never know what hard times will come your way"
"We say"
"Where we're coming from "
"We've already seen"
"The wealth that this life can bring"
"Now we're expected everywhere that we go"
"All the things that they say"
"Yeah we already know"

"You had your chance you blew it"
"Out of sight, out of mind"
"Shut your mouth I just can't take it"
"Again and again and again and again"

Sometime, i just had to feel this way...
It's jsut so different now..
Well, that's all for now then...
Till next time...
bb