enveloped with the feeling of....

Hi all,

It's been a few days since i've last posted...

Well...nothing much happened lately...

Slacked and chilled at Jurong Point this few days with Hong, Mx, Edward and Jeremiah...

Went back to CCK on friday for the sec 3 spring cleaning...

The discipline slacked alot....

And it'll be up to me to improve it...haiz...

Sometimes people ask me why did i become an officer...

I also do wonder it myself....

Burden myself with such a load...ha...

Well thats that...

Recently..i have this feeling....this feeling of

gnicrof!srehto@ot#eb$ym%dneirf^dna&ot*wollof(eht)ecivda!!i!@evig

haha....
it's definately a crap feeling....

20here's9s15o13any20hings921ant20o8elp
2ut14o20ne21ants20o19hare9t
20hus9'm12eft9n20he4ark
1nd3an15nly12ook21hile15ther6riends15f13ine19uffers916ain

This is also something which bothers me alot...
It just caused me to be anxious....

"I can hear my heart beat"
"Is this the last time"
"You get to be mine"
"I lack the will to carry on"
"On and on"

"Why do you take it all"
"Why do i beg for more"
"I never thought that this is how i'd hit the floor"
" Why do you take it all"
"Why do i beg for more"
"I never thought that this is how I'd hit the floor"

Well....that's all for now....
haha...it took me 33 days to express out what i feared the most...
Hopefully my secret will sink with me...haha
Till next time...
bb

Nostalgic

Hi all,

It's been another week since i've last posted...haha
Well, the week has been a fruitful one...
Shall continue with last week then....

Thursday

Went to meet wei hong and jeremiah at cck...bought some water guns for the games later...

Went to the chalet...had some problems checking in...but still checked in in the end (although i can sue them for not letting us check in).

Chill there till dinner...after dinner, was still hungry...so benjamin (yirong's friend) suggested a game. We are to divide into 2 teams.... and to get food .... the group with the most food wins...

So we went out...and our group got lots of chicken wng...haha..the other group, they got lots of otahs lol....

So went one corner to finish off the food...haha...was quite nice...haha

After that, commence with our water gun game...was running around the chalet like 5 year olds shooting the water gun....(i'll bet most think that we're childish)....but who cares?...we had our fill of fun..haha....

After that, went back to room and played with cards...
played a new game called "kena jack"...haha...
Slept abit in the room lol..
All in all the chalet was fun..haha...

Friday

Was sleeping in the train....
Reach Bukit Gombak, alighted and went to HillGrove Secondary to settle some camp stuff for the following day...

Went to daryl's house for an overnight stay...

Saturday

Had ANCO camp at HillGrove Secondary...
Was busy running here and there...setting up this and that for so many things that is happening...
Ended up being scolded for not being able to complete my preparation for my own things...

I was the safety officer for the camp...
and guess what....
I had 16 casualties on the 1st day...
1 dislocation, 1 fracture, 2 back injury, 1 head injury, and the rest is more minor cases...

Sunday

Had the expedition...
Was suppose to HIKE form stations to stations...
End up my group ran from station to station...so instructor also need to follow them....
Ended up running around the whole bukit batok area...

After that was campfire...still settling problems last minute when the cd couldn't work...
But it worked out in the end...orrowed a stereo to blast the music...haha...
Was asked by my group to dance....so no choice....
Followed them in their dance steps...(don't know what fast and crazy dance steps also)...

Monday

After breaking of camp, where the cadets need to literally break through the wall the officer's had form...
30++ people versus 10++ people...
Who do you think will win?....
And somemore there's 2 waves...

Went back to school after that to discuss VFX....

Tuesday

Chilled at JEC....

Wednesday

Had a St John outing for the sec 3s...end up only a few came...
Went to arcade at CCK, follwed by arcade at JEC...
After that went k boxing...tried to sing some songs....
I know my singing skill sucks....

Anyway...
What's with the "i'm not worthy of your help"...
This is not the 1st time i've heard this sentence lol....and i seriously don't like it....
You're a human, i'm a human....
Futhermore you're a friend to me....so what it about not being "worthy"
i choose to help who i want...whether you accept it or not is a different matter...
So i get to choose who is or is not "worthy" of my help...haha

Well, i don't know why...but i'm a person who has a helping nature....
I don't know why but it's just in me...
Maybe because of what history has mould me, i became who i am today...
So c'mon people out there...
Accept my help when i give it out....
Or i will feel helplessness instead...hahah

"So this is where the story ends"
"A conversation on IM"
"Well I'm done"
"That's it, sorry for the miscommunication"

"You're on the stand (stand)"
"With your back against the wall (wall)"
"Nowhere to run (run)"
"And nobody you can call (call)"

Haha, just some songs to share it with you guys...
Well, that's all for now...
Till next time...
bb

One day maybe?

Hi all,

It's been another week since i've last posted..haha

Had been a busy week?

Had both SJ stuff and Sch work to settle....

And currently trying to make myself as busy as i can....or i would be rotting at home and doing nothing...

Can't actually remember much of last week lol...

Just remebered that wednesday went out to SJ HQ to meet whiskey, my group for this year ANCO camp...

Well, what can i say about them....hmm...maybe start off by they should bond with each other more...

Well, i have a feeling that this year...i'm gonna be a failure in bringing the group again as i will rarely meet them, thus having less time in interacting with them...
Well, there's always the MSN to help me with this...haha

hmm...thursday went to cut my hair at Xuxuan's house?...haha...her mum was friendly enough....haha....
After that went to bukit batok to pass Charmaine my camera...really apprecaite the dumplings that she had given me....(that being my dinner at 11+)....
After that met Yishu and chatted till around 2 before he send me back home with "his" RX-5.....
haha

Friday, spent most of my day entertaining SOMEONE....haha...then went to pack at night and went to swiss to " stayover" at their camp...

Saturday was alright...not much of a problem...decided to "stayover" in swiss again since too lazy to go home...

Sunday played some majong with my family members....lost abit...haha....It's kind of becoming our family day playing majong together...since i rarely meet them much now...

Yesterday went to JEC to chill there with Hong, Edward and MX...haha....tried to find someone but couldn't find...end up got sniped myself..haha...

Well, to people out there smoking, planning to smoke.....what's so great about smoking?....
I've tried and tried to stop friends from smoking.... sometimes trying too hard till now i'm sick and tired of stopping them....since it's useless....
Even my body got used to the cigrette's smell....
So what's so good about it? The Feeling? The Sensation?
Maybe i should try it one day...and see how it feels?....
Ya...maybe i would....though i know i will hate it....
And what's up with juvenile's smoking....
Especially if they smoke and act big....acting like they own the road or something...
Really feel like giving them a punch in the face....and finally get to be in a real fight woth a couple of guys...haha....
And if they really want to look for trouble, well...i've fought with a chopper before...why not do it again..haha...

"Are you listening?"
"We write a thousand pages, they're torn and on the floor."
"Headlights hammer the windows, we're locked behind these doors."
"And we are never leaving, this place is part of us."
"And all these scenes repeating are cold to the touch."

"We had fire in our eyes"
"In the beginning I"
"Never felt so alive"
"In the beginning you"
"You blame me but"
"It's not fair when you say that I didn't try"
"I just don't want to hear it anymore"

Well, just some songs to express how it feels like to be me? haha....
Haha, well, all this songs, have nice lyrics....just that people doesn't know how to appreciate them... just like some of the things....
Well, that's all for now then...
Till next time..
bb

Lost for words

Hi all,

It's been another week or so...haha....

Well, had been busy with SJ...

1st of would be the ANCO course for which i got "scolded" for not settling NDP well enough...
haha..again... it will aways be my fault...but no one sees it huh? Or maybe just a few....

After that is the Corp Camp...Scolded abit...never gave out any punishment....not to sec 2s and 1s anyway...Sec 3s i only brought them to do PT and gave them the "41" sit ups which they enjoyed so much...ha...

Last day, was damn tired...due to not sleeping early for a few days before lol...treated Kartika for a series of hyperventilation...nearly sent her to hospital...ha...but end up, it turned out to be fine...

Today went recee around Bukit Batok area...was alright...felt abit weak when having dinner lol..may be due to not having anything before recee...

Well, today someone brought out an interesting topic...

It's about dreams lol... and how sometimes people perceive that we can predict the future as we had dreamt of the events that happened before hand.

Well, the human mind sometimes dream of things closely related to you.

And when you wake up, the image stays in your sub concious mind.

When something similar is happening around you, the sub concious mind will generate the image back, causing you to think that this is exactly the same thing that happened in your dream.

Thus, sometimes we think that we can predict the future.

Well, almost forgot that i've been staying over at edward's house a few times the past week. haha...it was cool..haha...

Hmm, dou you guys listern to your mothers?

Do whatever they tell you to?

If so, good for you then.

Ha..came back home today and my mum starts ranting about all my stuff....

Suggesting that i should move out of my house...since i'm old enough...

Maybe i should be a "good boy" and follow her wish?....

Well, if so, any friend to rent me a room to stay?... or else i will just take up the school's dorm...

ha..heck it....nowadays, so many things need MONEY....

Problems, problems and no solutions....ha..

"A world that sends you reeling"
"From decimated dreams"
"Your misery and hate will kill us all"
"So paint it black"
"And take it back"
"Lets shout it loud and clear"
"Defiant to the end we hear the call"

"Boys will be boys"
"Hiding in estrogen and boys will be boys"
"Boys will be boys"
"Hiding in estrogen and wearing Aubergine dreams"

Songs is the best way to express what you want to show...haha...
Well, that's all for now..haha...
Till next time...
bb