Hmm...

Hi all,

It's been months since i've last posted..
And as usual, lots of things happened...

Well, 1st off, i'm in the army already...lol..
So it's Tekong on weekdays and Singapore on on weekends... haha

Alright to start it all up, let me tell you guys a story..

There was once a boy,
who liked a girl a lot.
He was 12 then,
and he thought he knew what love was.
One day, the girl got hit by a car while crossing the road.
The boy saw the whole thing, but did not know what to do.
In the end, the girl died in front of the boy,
while the boy knows nothing but to stand there with tears running down his cheeks.
The boy's heart was shattered, broken into piece.
He promised that he'll be able to help others instead of standing there,
and never shed a tear again.

Well, that's the end of the story, hope you guys liked it..haha

Anyway, i'm sick and tired of all the things that i've done, and end up, people don't even care about it.
I've put in my effort, give it what i can, and yet, it's either ignored or treated as a norm.
It's in my nature to help, but please don't take it for granted..
Perhaps i should try to help less, maybe that'll work..

Sometimes i do think i'm too proud, but i find myself despising the younger generations more and more..
Everyone is getting weaker and weaker, demanding more and more, and becoming more like bastards and bitches..
Parents nowadays are like servants to some kids, fulfilling the kid's every wishes and all, and end up, they'll learn to regret once the kid takes it for granted..
Perhaps "battle royale" isn't so bad after all, since it teaches everyone to be stronger...hmmm...

Well, thanks to this generation of spoiled brats, there are more morons and selfish bastards around..
Like i say, kids take things for granted, they expect everything to be spoon fed to them..
Soon, we'll have kids who'll be like, "Mum, help me wear my clothes!"
Kids also don't use they're brains anymore, the brains are so tuned to studying for exams, but not used for the basic function of thinking logically and such, thus making them do stupid things, like wanting to die every time they face with a small problem, smoking and thinks that it's cool, etc etc...

Anyway, enough of kids, let's talk about a man's greatest fear.
It's not spiders, death, heights, durians, etc etc...
I found out that a man's greatest fear is actually being forgotten.
When you're forgotten, you practically never exist before, nothing you have done had any impact on others.
In short, it meant you've wasted your life for nothing, nothing at all, for you never exist if no one remembers you..
How sad can that actually be...hmmm...

Once again, i hate going to uninvited events...
Why? Because every time i go for such an event, the expression on others face would be priceless..
"What are you doing here?"
"Where did you come from?"
People will be wondering what in the hell are you doing there...
Even if it was to ask to go for an uninvited event, people will always ask, "How you know?"
There's no intention of me being there 1st, so that's why i'm not invited.
So if you guys want a reason, there you have it...

By the way, i've realised, there's no such things as unbroken promises..
Promises are there to be broken..
No matter how much people avoid breaking it, promises will fail with memories..
So why promise all the flashy stuff when promises are only a short lived thing...

Anyway, there's always an inferior feeling...
Not sure whether is is affected by the past, but whenever i think of it, i'll try and hide it..
Maybe i shouldn't have this negative feeling at all...hmmm...
Since i'm always being pushed to my limits...
It's like they want you to constantly improve without much rest...

Anyway, i sometimes do have the urge to just take a knife and stab myself..
To feel whether the pain is real enough...
To feel the pain of everything...
Hmm, wierd thoughts again...

"So dont try to say you're sorry,"
"Or try to make it right,"
"Don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late."

"I remember what they taught to me,"
"Remember condescending talk,"
"Of who I ought to be,"
"Remember listening to all of that,"
"And this again,"
"So I pretended up a person who was fitting in,"
"And now you think this person,"
"Really is me and I'm,"
"(Trying to bend the truth)"
"The more I push,"
"The more I’m pulling away,"
"Cause I’m,"
"(Lying my way from)"
"You!"

Just a few songs again to portray the mood...
That's all i guess...
Till next time...
bb