The Cycle

Hi all,

It's been weeks since i've last posted...

Mainly due to the fact that my laptop is spending more time sleeping then being awake...
Well, things have happened this few weeks,
and to start it all up,

I would like on emphasis on a fact that i've observed..
No matter how much i want to deny it,
It still comes back in a form of a cycle...
No matter what was done, and no matter how others deny it as well,
Fact remains that soon, things will change back to the past.
Since i've lost at the 1st, the 2nd and now the 3rd seems to slowly fade away with the passing wind.
Recently though, i've caught the breeze again, only to lose another..

This brings me to the fact where in life, often choices are made, no matter how big or small they are, there are bound to be sacrifices.
Every step you take in life, every choice you make in life, you're bound to lose something else.
It just comes naturally that people often like to sacrifice something small in exchange for something larger, or should i say, "For The Greater Good."
This theory has been true in all aspects of life, and is happening at every moment of your life.
Thus, when people make their choices in life, there will often be regrets.
Why is that so?
Plainly due to the fact that they made the "wrong" choice, or took a bigger sacrifice then the other, and realise that they shouldn't be so hasty.

I've also learned a meaningful sentence this few days, "a person's personality is not reflected by the way he presents himself, rather, it's through the act of a person that shows the real personality."
I find this sentence rather true, for example: a person sleeping in class may not seem to know much about the lesson and would not seem interested, but what people can't see is how hard he studies for the subject and the knowledge he possess for the particular subject.

Well, this just shows how naive a human can be, for they will always look at the surface of things, and never really go understand the inner layers. Due to the fact of it being troublesome and they would rather spend time on something else.

Another meaningful sentence that i've found, "It is very easy to change one's appearance or pick up a kind of fashion -a way or a style to maintain one's looks or a very cosmopolitan lifestyle...but it is not that easy to emulate inner substance and the more intangible values in life."

This sentence is simply an evidence to the fact that i've stated.
People will only look at the surface of things, and rarely will they care about the inner side of things. With this, it'll often lead to the wrong conclusion, leading a mistake in judgement, and the forever condemnation of something innocent.

Who can actualy answer me this question:
How do i heal a broken heart?
For it is not the answer that i seek, but rather the method

Life is also like an Onion,
It starts off with a layer, and as you slowy unconver more layers,
the more it'll make you cry, and only until the end,
did you realise that you've peeled till it's nothing,
and that you've wasted your time crying...

"The moments died, I hear no screaming,"
"The visions left inside me are slowly fading"
"Would she hear me if I called her name?"
"Would she hold me if she knew my shame?"
"There's always something different going wrong"
"The path I walk is in the wrong direction"
"There's always someone fuckin hanging on"
"Can anybody help me make things better"

"But when I need you"
"You're almost here"
"And I know that's not enough"
"And when I'm with you"
"I'm close to tears"
"'cause your only almost here"
"Bruise and battered by your words"
"Days are shattered, now it hurts"
"Haven't I always loved you?"

Just some of the things i felt when i'm typing now...haha
Well, hopefully no one understands it till i truly leave...haha
Well, that's all for now..
Till next time...
bb